The Wisdom of God is Found When Sweating Drops of Blood
- Date: March 13, 2019
- Teacher: Pastor Star R. Scott
- Scripture: “ Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.” (Luke 22:42)
- From Wise To Do Evil
In these last couple of years, Father spoke to me about a few items that I had. The words that He spoke were not exactly this, but He just spoke to me. And it's hard to convey. This might express it the clearest. "Who do you think you are that you should possess something like that?" When He spoke that to me I looked at that stuff, and it became offensive to me. I said, "I'll never put that on again." And then I never thought anything more about it, that much. But later, supernaturally, absolutely supernaturally, while I was in California, boom! I just happened to be in conversation with a guy who said he knew a guy. And I ended up going to New York to liquidate all of this. And I'm so thankful for what Father revealed about my heart. And I've shared. I've tried to be vulnerable through all this process with you, and yet not able to speak all of the details. It's not necessary to get all of the details.
The only point I'm making is this: It's painful to really see what we are. It is a fearful thing to encounter the living God! When you truly encounter God, you fall at His feet as dead. You put your hand over your mouth. You become undone. I'm talking about one aspect. I'm not talking about our legal position in Christ, our sonship, our righteousness. I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about this encounter that we have with God; you all know what I'm talking about. In fact, so many times it becomes so powerful that we have to draw on all of those legal positions, don't we? Or we'd be totally undone! Then we take the Word of God and we confess our sonship, and we confess the promises of God as to who we are. But it takes these encounters, beloved, to finally be able to grasp the wisdom of God. And you know where it's found? It's found in Gethsemane. The wisdom of God is found when you are sweating drops of blood. The wisdom of God is found when you finally, for the last time, say, "Not my will, thy will be done." And we just don't get there without crisis, unfortunately.
I've been reading through a number of men lately. You can study, you can pray. People try to say, "You don't have to go through crisis." I absolutely, through all of my study in these years, do not believe it! Because we saw that wisdom comes from what? Experience. You can read about it. You can imagine what you would do in a certain situation. But until you've died to it, until you've tasted of it, until you've been refined by the hand of God, we have not known the wisdom of God.